Every day I wake up and think to myself, "Fuck." That's considering if I slept at all that night. Many nights are sleepless. Just tossing and turning, not being able to shut my brain off. The nights I am able to sleep, I have terrible nightmares and wake up soaked with sweat, barely knowing where I am. Did you know that after about 5 days of no sleep, you start to hallucinate? I didn't. No one warned me about that. That tidbit of information would've been useful so I didn't think I was going TOTALLY insane. People on the outside of my life looking in may think that everything's fine. I have a roof over my head, a good job that I love, family who I love, 2 beautiful boys who I love...what could possibly be wrong? Also, I seem like I'm in a pretty positive mood most of the time, so nothing could be wrong, right? WRONG!!! I don't know why I think the way that I do. To be honest, it scares the shit out of me...and I'm not easily scared. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for what I do have. I am definitely not some ungrateful, spoiled little shit. I do have family, friends, food, shelter, and a career. Which is a lot more than most people have. So why am I so fucked up? Why am I having these terrible thoughts? I DON'T KNOW!!! And that's what scares me the most. Could it be all the twisted crap that I did in my past? Maybe. Could it be due to the fact that I have pretty much blocked out 12 years of my life? (Which multiple psychiatrists have determined is because of a trauma that was so severe that I simply can't handle it, so I repressed those years.) Possibly. Could it be that no matter how hard I try to be healthy, and stay sober (for the most part), I continue to have severe health issues that are totally incurable, and the treatment for them (so far) has been a total waste of time? Could be. Could it be that every month I lose another one of my friends to overdoses, suicide, accidents, etc.? Might be. Honestly, it's probably a combination of all that crap. It can't just be one thing. I know I'm not a weak person. I've been through shit you probably can't even imagine...not even in your worst nightmares. Honestly, I wouldn't want you to be able to imagine the shit I've dealt with. I wouldn't wish any of that on my worst enemy. I don't even really know where this is going. I just needed to write this, just to get some crap off my chest (metaphorically speaking). I know I have issues. Trust issues, issues with anxiety...I have a lot of issues. Most of them I deal with, some I can't handle. The only things keeping me on this earth are my kids. This is not a "cry for help". I don't need or want anyone's sympathy. I'm not trying to make anyone feel bad for me. Just take this thought with you: Simply because a person may seem like nothing is bothering them, like nothing's wrong. That they're happy in life...that may not be the case at all. This is going to sound really cliché, but don't judge a book by it's cover. The cover may be all sunshine and rainbows, but once you actually start reading that book, it may be one of the most terrifying experiences of your life. That's it for now. Usually I have a little funnyish thing to put here, but I'm not in the mood. If you are having any similar thoughts, get help. Seriously. Don't mess around. Tweet me: http://www.twitter.com/nytatt2chick Facebook me: http://www.facebook.com/nytatt2chick Instagram me: http://instagram.com/nytatt2chick YouTube me: http://www.youtube.com/therealnytatt2chick G+ me: https://plus.google.com/+LauraCeruti Email me:
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Things You Should NEVER Do In a Tattoo Shop (Unless you want to look like a total asshole!)1/14/2014 Hi everyone in internet land! Miss me? I missed you! Anyway, let's get right into the topic at hand: Things You Should NEVER Do In a Tattoo Shop (Unless you want to look like a total asshole!) There are so many things that so many people do at tattoo shops that should never, under ANY circumstances, unless they want to look like a complete asshole, that I can't list them all, but here are some that aggravate me the most. 1: Asking for a price on a tattoo, without giving any specific details, and in some cases, no details at all. This happens a LOT. Someone comes in with a really vague idea of what they want to get tattooed, and barely an idea of where they want to get it tattooed on them. That conversation usually goes something like this: Client: "I want to get a dragon tattoo" Me: "Okay. What style dragon? Oriental? Mid-evil? New school? Traditional? Realism?" Client: "I'm not really sure." Me: "Okay...color, or black and gray?" Client: "I don't really know." Me: "Umm...okay. Where do you want to get it?" Client: "I don't know, I was thinking maybe my thigh, or my arm, or my ribs." Me: "Are you sure you're ready to get this done? It doesn't seem like you've given this too much thought." Imagine playing 20 Questions every day, except the person who you're playing with doesn't have any of the answers. Sounds irritating as hell, doesn't it? Well it is. It's even worse if someone doesn't even have a basic idea of what they want. If you don't know what you want, how can you expect me to know what you want? 2: Coming in and pulling up a picture (of a tattoo that's already been done) on your phone, and demanding to get that exact tattoo done, without allowing any changes. This one is pretty much the polar opposite as #1, but it's just as annoying, if not more so. There are a lot of tattooers out there who have no issue with tracing someone else's work, tattooing it onto a client, and, in some cases, claiming the design as their own. I am not one of these tattooers. You're more than welcome to bring in a reference picture to give me an idea of what you want. In fact, that's fantastic if you do. It gives me an idea of the basic design that you want. However, a reference picture should be used as REFERENCE, not traced to be identical. Not only does this show that a total lack originality and creativity, but it's also stealing. You are stealing the original artist's work, AND you're also devaluing the original piece. 3: Saying anything about how your boy does "sick tatts" out of his house at a much cheaper price. (Especially if you're covered in his horrible work!) Not only does this make you look like an asshole, but you also sound like a total idiot. If your "boy" can bang out a totally rocking rib piece for only $30, then why are you here? Oh...that's right. You boy's garbage, and you know it. That's why you came to me: to get it done right. 4: Trying to talk down the price to some ridiculously insulting number. I'm usually pretty fair with my pricing. I know it's just as hard for you to come up with money as it is for me. That doesn't mean that I should give you such a low price that I wind up getting screwed. 5: Asking for a "hook up" This one is probably the most irritating to me. If you are a regular client, I'm already giving you a lowered price. If you don't know me, or if I tattooed you 3 years ago one time...don't even bother asking this. It's just going to piss me off. There's probably a billion other things, but I can't really think of any right now. If I do, I'll write a part 2. That's all I got this time! Please follow my blog if I made you think, or laugh, or lick a kitten's face, or ANYTHING....and feel free to comment if you agree, or disagree, or just want to discuss the possibility that unicorns exist! I'm not here to judge you! But I do have an opinion on a LOT of things, and if you can help me understand yours, in a logical and reasonable fashion....you might just change my mind! But probably not. I love you, and I hope you have a glorious day! Tweet me: http://www.twitter.com/nytatt2chick Facebook me: http://www.facebook.com/nytatt2chick Instagram me: http://instagram.com/nytatt2chick YouTube me: http://www.youtube.com/therealnytatt2chick G+ me: https://plus.google.com/+LauraCeruti Email me: I just learned an interesting fact: Our sun is NOT actually yellow (or red, or orange!). It actually burns a white, which only appears to be yellow, blue-green color, or other colors, because of the distortion caused by our atmosphere. NASA actually recolors the sun in photos, because that's what we're used to seeing. **FUN FACT** The sun's rays dispersed through the atmosphere is actually why our sky appears blue! ANNNNYYYYYWWWWAAAAYY! Back to my original train of thought. So Superman (allegedly) gets his powers from our yellow sun, correct? (Of course it's correct...what? ARE YOU QUESTIONING ME?!) Well, Superman...IF THAT IS YOUR REAL NAME!!! Well...it's not, it's Kal-El, and also Sups, we all know you're Clark Kent. Sorry to burst your bubble, but glasses + curl does not = a convincing disguise. You CLAIM to get your power from our "yellow sun"...which I've already shit on that theory. Considering the fact that you have exited the Earth's atmosphere several times (even went INTO the sun on at least one occasion), you KNOW that our sun is NOT yellow, rather a blue/green color. So, Superman/Clark Kent/Kal-El...you, sir, are a PHONY!! A BIG FAT PHONY!!! You get no powers from our sun at all! (Neither does Zog...) **MY CONCLUSION** Superman suffered a TBI when his spaceship crashed into Smallville, and all of his "heroic exploits" have been nothing more than the delirious hallucinations of an alien life form locked away in a secret government base. (This would include any and all interactions with other REAL members of TJLA, and/or various super villains.) SUCK ON THAT, SUPERMAN! That's all I got this time! Please follow my blog if I made you think, or laugh, or shoot ramen noodles out of your nose, or ANYTHING....and feel free to comment if you agree, or disagree, or just want to discuss the possibility that unicorns exist! I'm not here to judge you! But I do have an opinion on a LOT of things, and if you can help me understand yours, in a logical and reasonable fashion....you might just change my mind! But probably not. I love you, and I hope you have a glorious day! xoxoxo Laura Tweet me: http://www.twitter.com/nytatt2chick Facebook me: http://www.facebook.com/nytatt2chick Instagram me: http://instagram.com/nytatt2chick YouTube me: http://www.youtube.com/therealnytatt2chick G+ me: https://plus.google.com/+LauraCeruti Email me: Just in case you didn't believe me: http://www.universetoday.com/18689/color-of-the-sun/ Yep. Superman is living a lie...maybe that's why he's so hard to kill! *If you die in your dreams, you die in real life!* Ok...I've calmed down a little bit. BUT I'M STILL PISSED!!!! Also, I got kinda lazy with the blog & YouTube vids....so....yeah. ANYWAY.....here ya go: Vids are soon to come. Dear Ben Affleck: Where do you get off thinking that you, of all people, have the capability of playing the Batman?! Stop it. Stop it now. You can barely act. You're more famous for banging JLo...which isn't really an accomplishment. Stick to the tiny parts that Kevin Smith allows you to have in his movies, AND STAY THE FUCK OUTTA GOTHAM!!!! Sincerely, Everyone, everywhere That's all I got this time! Please follow my blog if I made you think, or laugh, or eat ramen noodles, or ANYTHING....and feel free to comment if you agree, or disagree, or just want to discuss the possibility that unicorns exist! I'm not here to judge you! But I do have an opinion on a LOT of things, and if you can help me understand yours, in a logical and reasonable fashion....you might just change my mind! But probably not. I love you, and I hope you have a glorious day! Tweet me: http://www.twitter.com/nytatt2chick Facebook me: http://www.facebook.com/nytatt2chick Instagram me: http://instagram.com/nytatt2chick YouTube me: http://www.youtube.com/therealnytatt2chick G+ me: https://plus.google.com/104204766948735523107 Email me: So this year I didn't even bother to watch the VMA's. Or the year before that, or the year before that...it's been a while. Why? BECAUSE MTV DOESN'T RUN MUSIC VIDEOS ANYMORE!!!! How are you going to host a music video award show....WHEN YOU DON'T RUN VIDEOS?!?! You know who SHOULD be hosting it? YouTube. Think about it, where do you go to watch ANY music videos? MTV?! (If you said yes to that, just stop reading this blog right now...you make no sense) NO!!! YouTube is the ONLY place that runs music videos. Of course, because I'm linked in to like EVERY SOCIAL NETWORK IN THE WORLD (pretty much)...I was pummeled by VMA posts all Sunday night and Monday morning. (Thanks for that, by the way) Here's an idea MTV. How about you stop hosting the VMA's, let YouTube take that over, and you guys can start hosting the "I'm Glad You Didn't Fuck Your Life Up Any Worse Than You Already Did" awards show. You can give awards to the girls & guys from "16 and Pregnant" who actually are raising their children (or who managed to NOT get knocked up right after they were on the show) You can give awards to the cast of "The Jersey Shore" who managed not to overdose, or totally fall off the wagon. Just spit balling some ideas. Not everything was terrible. We did get ONE good thing from this whole disaster. We got a new spin on an old joke: "Guess what..." "What?" "Miley butt!" Love you all!! Tweet me: http://www.twitter.com/nytatt2chick Facebook me: http://www.facebook.com/nytatt2chick Instagram me: http://instagram.com/nytatt2chick YouTube me: http://www.youtube.com/therealnytatt2chick G+ me: https://plus.google.com/104204766948735523107 Email me: There are a number of groups in the US who truly believe that they're doing the right thing for US citizens. Allow me to break it down for you: ***Disclaimer*** This is MY opinion! You are allowed & encouraged to create your own! I am not here to tell you how to think, act, or what to believe!
About 70% of them are very extreme in their belief that the "government is only looking out for us", and are willing to give up their rights (and push others to do the same), for a false sense of security. 39% of US citizens believe that we should retain our rights, but they also believe that the government is basically infallible. They don't want gun control, but wish to allow control in other aspects of our lives. (The Right) About 50% of these (or should I say "Real 'Mericans?) are so opposed to ANY government interference, that they're blind to anything else. They believe that abortion is an abomination. They believe all immigrants (especially those who practice Islam) are "terrorists"...(even though they know nothing (or very little) about the Islamic faith, except for what is spoon fed to them). These people wish to close off our borders. They will wave the bible around, throwing out random quotes. They CLAIM to be "awake", yet they are blind to any other theory that isn't exactly the same as theirs. They ALSO want to strip away our rights (especially amendments 1 & 4, in certain situations). (The Far Right) Both groups are for total government control, as long as it goes along with their own personal agendas. 15% of US citizens just don't care either way. They SHOULD, but I suppose it'd be too much of an effort...so they just go with the flow. Then there's the other 6%. This is where I fit in, (if I have to fit in anywhere). Luckily, this 6% is rapidly growing as more and more people realize what is actually going on I DO believe in separation of church & state...even though I am not religious. But who am I to judge? I DO believe that the Bill of Rights should NOT be altered under any circumstances. These are NOT privileges or "gifts" from the government that can be taken away. These are basic human rights, granted to any American citizen and CANNOT be taken away. They try to twist and spin it to look like they're doing it for our "best interest"...but we all know that's not the case. I DO believe in the freedom to practice any religion...again, I'm not religious, but I don't judge. (I mean seriously, have you read about Scientology?? Batshit crazy to me, but to each his own, I guess). Most importantly, I believe that US citizens have the right to know what is going on in their own government. The false flags keep piling up. The blame keeps getting pointed at innocent citizens (who mysteriously die in custody, or are just killed on sight)...the majority of whom practice Islam...which is a PEACEFUL RELIGION!!! (Seriously guys, saying all Muslims are extremists is like saying all Christians are Jehovah's Witnesses.) Our country was founded on the ideas that people could practice what they want, without prejudice. Protect and arm themselves, not only from other citizens, but from our own government. Our citizens should be considered innocent until proven guilty...and the burden of proof is on the state. We do not have to prove our innocence, THEY have to prove our guilt. Private property should NOT be searched without warrants, or probable cause...and if neither is available, citizens have the right to tell them to fuck off. This goes for seizure of private property as well. If you film something on your phone, the police can ASK that you turn it in...but they cannot FORCEFULLY take it. (Illegal search & seizure, 4th Amendment) Free speech should not be hindered in any way...even if it's in a "No Free Speech Zone"...which, by the way, is a totally made up thing. They do not exist. (Well, they do...but they shouldn't). Any US citizen who is being questioned, can decline the right to speak, as to not incriminate him/herself. Did you know that the Fifth Amendment is no more? Now remaining silent is the equivalent to an admission of guilt. Thanks Congress. The Declaration of Independence is available if you need anymore toilet paper. You've obviously burned through the Bill of Rights. Tweet me: http://www.twitter.com/nytatt2chick Facebook me: http://www.facebook.com/nytatt2chick YouTube me: http://www.youtube.com/therealnytatt2chick Instagram me: http://instagram.com/nytatt2chick G+ me: https://plus.google.com/104204766948735523107 Email me: |
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